From Him To Us Volume 1, Nate Gray Inspiration Author.

Fear of Success? ---From Chicago Native author, Nate Gray
www.nategray.com

The more interesting life gets, I have a fear of, what if this ends
now? I have a sudden flash of the good times, fun I’ve had, the people in my life, and the things I want to accomplish in life. Then I feel this increase of passion, and I also see a really big vision. My mind is veering off to the future. My mind is never done veering into the future, but that vision of the future faces challenges. One challenge is the hope to do all that I set out to do. I'm also faced with the fact that I am vulnerable just as everyone else. Tomorrow is not promised neither is later today promised. Even other things run through my head such as, what if I don't get a chance to see the moments and events that are planned and I'm looking forward to? I even think about if I don’t get a chance to finish a project that I'm looking forward to having a great impact on the world. As I get started on new business ventures and the more I am excited about it, that feeling reoccurs and I have a vision of the person of group of people I'm doing business with and that vision shows me to put no trust in man; put no stake in mans word. As much as I look forward to executing this venture, I feel a quick shock to my soul and there's a sudden thought of something happening to them or myself that would stop it from progressing. I look forward to coming into the Greatest peak of my talents. What if my plane goes down on the way to something I'm looking forward to? Or what if it goes down returning home from anything or from something great I’ve just done? I often think about the people I affect and those close to me and how I never will know what my last moment would be like with each one I was with. What would the last thing I ever say or write be like to everyone and what affect will it have on him or her? When I talk to God and my people in my circle, God tells us the Devil is a lie. We all know he's a lie and we remind each other of that when we face hard times. I know people say, the higher you go up in something, the less you have to do. I agree too. I also understand that the higher I get with Christ, the more enemies that may be out for me. I am not exempt from anything in life. I want my mom to see me make it, I want to see my people get on and my vision is just bright. I only have one life to live and do it, and I don't want to die as a restless spirit. The more I think about the future and my plans; I start to feel whatever feeling it is that I feel inside my heart. It’s somewhat difficult to describe this feeling. It’s like a mixture of dreaming about my goals and feeling anxiety and not knowing how things will turn out or what is to come. I don't know if what I'm feeling is a fear of success or a fear of the unknown.